Hey everyone. You know how I said in one of the last post about how I would get revenge even If I had to be the servant of a fear? Well I did. I couldnt do it alone, and darkness came to me with a offer I just couldnt refuse. I am going to be a shadow. Sorry to all you guys that expect more out of me. To some of you I have failed, and I know some of you will be disappointed in me for what I have done. All I can say is sorry.

Ok guys... so as you can see from my previous rant post earlier.... Someone killed a friend of mine.... YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK IT. SOMEONE KILLED DORIAN. NOT JUST SOMEONE. PROXIES KILLED DORIAN. THOSE FUCKERS BLEW UP THE GODDAMN BOAT HE WAS ON. I was gonna make this a calm non ranting post, but fuck it. Just fuck it. I'm not okay about this. In fact I'm downright enraged over what happened.  Every second I grow more and more angry about what those fuckers did to him.  They will suffer, I can promise you that. I've already lost enough people that I care about, and they had to go and take him away from me too. FUCK YOU PROXIES, AND FUCK YOU STRIDER.

To the motherfuckers who kill my friend.... If some of you are reading this( And I hope you are),  know that I wont just let this go. I will have my revenge for what you bastards did to him. I will hunt down each and every one of you, and kill you slowly, and painfully. Dont think I wont because I will. I will have my revenge even if I have to get help from certain people, and you know exactly what I'm talking about. Even if I have to spend the rest of my life as the servant of some fear to get to you, know that I will do so, just for the satisfaction of knowing you are dead.

Pissing a certain someone off.

I'm making fun of your 'father'. How do you like me now bro? :)

I realized my last post is kinda vague, and some of you might be lost about whats going on. So as you all probably know, the dude who cut off carter's arm said that hes coming for me next.  B has become a proxy. He is avoiding me now, and told all my friends lies about me, which made them cut off all contact with me. But a weird thing happened the other day. I was sitting outside of my school waiting for a ride home, and I saw B and a few of my old friends walk out. They ignored me completely, even when I tried talking to them. B didnt ignore me this time, but kept glaring at me with a look of pure hatred. Just seeing him look at me like that made me finally break. I fell to the ground and started sobbing uncontrollably. I heard a loud gasp, and someone running over. The person dropped to the ground next to me, and pulled me closer so I could cry into their shoulder. I looked up expecting to see one of my old friends there, but to my surprise it was B, and he looked seriously concerned for me. He was the old B again, and not the hateful little shit he has turned into. He stayed that way for a few more seconds before suddenly changing. He gave me a look of disgust, and surprise, and pushed me off him before walking away. On a last note, yes I'm having a complicated relationship with someone. Some of you probably know him, but most dont. I wont say exactly who it is for certain reasons. And yes rose, it is the slightly annoying person that I was complaining about the other day :)

So right now I have a crazy person wanting to kill me, a proxy ex boyfriend, no more friends, and a complicated relationship with someone....  Could life get any worse?

I've already lost him... I dont wanna loose you too.