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So me and Mr B have been moving around alot. Trying to avoid people that are less than friendly is harder than one would think. And we sure have gone far. We finally got to...Russia I think he said? He says he has a bit of unfinished business to take care of here, which i'm totally down for right now. We should be leaving soon though because of alot of chaos that's happening here at the moment.

So we were walking down a street, and the dumb ass wouldn't stop humming a annoying as hell song. After awhile it got to me and I couldn't take his crap anymore. I turned to him, with eyes glaring, and knife pointed. "Hum it one more time you little shit. I dare you." Just as I finished my sentence a large building behind me collapsed. B looked from me to the building a few times before nodding his head and quickly walking in the other direction.

This was only the first time something huge has fallen around us. Its complete mayhem everywhere. Crap is falling on people, there is blood all over the streets, everyone turning on each other and total confusion. Someone is causing more trouble than I could have imagined. I have to say I am actually sorta curious as who is fighting over what, and why.

For now we are hiding with a family in a underground bunker like thing. They were nice to let us in here with them, but I wont stay for long even if that's B's course of action. Not with something this big happening outside.

Someone knocked over a skyscraper near me. I swear some people...

I remember a certain girl that was once brought to the garden to see me. Sierra said her name was Erika, she was a old friend of my mother and that she had paid a very high price to come into the garden to see me. She never gave any details as to what this price was, and I didn't much care because I had a new friend to play with for a time.

This girl was apparently mute, and only communicated with writing on pieces of paper which were closely watched by Sierra. Anytime the girl wrote something Sierra didn't like she wouldn't let me see it, and scowled at her. Even though her words were highly censored, she still told me wonderful stories of my mother, and a few of her other friends.

I never learned a whole lot about her until recently when I read her blog, and was told a few things by B. So what I have gathered is that Erika saved my mother several times from the shadows, and even stopped her from becoming one. But she became unable to help her anymore when her lover disappeared, leaving her in complete ruins. Although Erika saved her so many times, it appears she couldn't even save herself.

I saw her recently. She was in the middle of a dark street, and I barely recognized her anymore. I saw how empty her eyes were, and how feral, and animal like her reasoning skills have become. She was covered in blood, and was beheading a small girl. I left before she could see me, but it appears as if Erika has completely snapped now. If anyone comes across her, don't in any way provoke her. She is very dangerous, and armed. She has shown that she wont even hesitate to kill anyone in her way.

Guess that weird guy B was being honest in one respect. When I say this, I mean the fucking shadows that attack. Those little bitches had been following me for about a mile, before they decided to ambush me from behind as I was on the laptop I got courtesy of my old kidnapper. Getting your face bashed into a key board is never fun ladies and gentlemen.

That B guy saved me I guess. All I remember is that one minute I was getting my face bashed into a laptop and the next I was in a dirty hotel room with him. He was just sitting there with a huge shit eating grin on his face, and refused to answer any of my questions. "That was a close one huh?" he said that, then started laughing for no real reason. 

He hasn't wanted to tell me much since we've been here. All I've gotten from him is that he is leaving for somewhere down south in the morning, and hopes I'll go with him. I'm not 100% sure if its a good idea or not, but to avoid anymore unpleasant encounters alone, I've decided to keep him close. This means that I will be leaving in the morning with him.

I'm hoping I don't run into anymore of those shadow bastards, or Sierra. Its obvious that neither are on my side, and although Lilith doesn't seem too mad at me for what I'm doing, Sierra apparently has some strange sense of justice that she feels will be dealt by killing me. I still cant believe that the one who cared for, and trained me for so many years has turned on me so easily.

They...are moving, and theres nothing here to make them... this is impossible.
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I finally got around to going to the park. Turns out it was actually pretty close in the first place. It didn't take much to find it, I've just been busy with other things. It might not have been the best idea, but as usual my curiosity took over common sense.

Its bigger than I expected, and filled with trees. I wasn't really sure what I was suppose to do there, so I just sat on a bench and waited. I had been sitting there for awhile when i heard someone walk up behind me.  It was just a guy around my age. He was taller than me, had long black hair, and metal on his face. (I believe its called...a piercing?) I didn't know him, but he sure seemed to know me.  He sat down next to me and started to just talk.  He told me his name was Benjamin, but that I should just call him B. He said he was once my mother's lover, but thats impossible. She has been dead 19 years, and he cant be any older than 17 or 18, therefore I call bullshit on his story.

As soon as I realized he was lying about things, I also realized how stupid I was to come here. It was obviously some kind of trap. I immediately left, but he told me something strange. "Watch out for the shadows."

I went into Lilith's garden to attempt to find carter. Sierra obviously hadn't gotten there to warn everyone about me yet, so nobody gave me any problems. Lilith gave me a big hug when I got there, and even showed me where carter was surprisingly enough.

Sam. He is no longer in the containment cell, but with the others. Although I doubt she has given him any special jobs to do yet, seeing as he is so new.

Now this part is a bit strange. Before I left my place of hiding, I locked all the doors and windows so nobody could get in. Despite my efforts, when I got back I found this inside:

Now before you start asking questions, let me tell you what I think. It looks like a diary entry or something similar. I think it was written by my mother. The front half anyway. I think the blue might be a message for me? Seeing as you cant really read it, it says: "Honestly its the only thing worth feeling. They brought me here to unwind and be spiritual, but how is it even possible? I've been telling everyone this story. I'm beyond caring who gets involved at this point. People keep staring at me as if i'm crazy when they hear it. I'm just angry I guess. Angry that a creature that doesn't even have a face could take something this perfect from me. The only perfect thing left. I'll do whatever it takes to bring him back or at least avenge him. That one loud voice named chaos tries stopping me. Only wanting blood, I don't see why she wont leave me to take my vengence. At this point I'm willing to kill, or involve any person, or Fear to get what I want. Darkness searches and I cant hide forever from her and the.." 

 It cuts off before it finishes the sentence. I'm wondering if there are any other parts to this thing. For now I think I might figure out where tiger tree is. After all, it has to mean something right?                                 

ITS VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!!!!! MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE HOLIDAY.

Its always celebrated as far as Lilith is concerned. I guess you could say its the biggest holiday for us, and my oh my is it great.
The only thing that makes me sad is that i'm not back in her garden to celebrate it with everyone today.