Park.

I'm going to the park with B, and my little brother. I have my knife, and B is bringing his bat so we can protect ourselves, and my little bro if anything happens. I really dont wanna go to this park because of all the trees and the fact that its dark, and sorta secluded, but my grandmother is making me take him. If I see anything that doesnt seem right I'll leave. Its probably gonna be fine, but i'm saying this, so if something happens to me you'll know what happened.

Sunday.

Ok, so its Sunday and my grandmother is making me go to church. Oh god. Its gonna be kinda funny going to church with a knife tucked into my belt under my pink and black dress. I don't trust that Jared and his buddies would have much respect for a church. Is it weird to say I feel like one of those agents from the movies? Like the chicks in the seemingly innocent dresses, with like guns and knives strapped to every part of their body under it? In all seriousness though... I never go anywhere without my knife, because I don't really like the idea of getting either A) knifed again, or B) getting beat or C) getting strangled, and not at all be prepared.If I'm gonna die I'm gonna go out swinging, and knife a few motherfuckers.

Awesome picture of me.

Thanks for the awesome picture of me Spyre, its really cool, and it makes me look badass :)

Weird dreams.

Ok, so I've been having weird dreams for the last week. In all them I see marcus, B, my friend sheila, and a redhead girl I've never seen before holding hands and standing in front of a dark foggy forest. They all start saying something I cant understand, that sounds like its maybe in a different language.All of them except the redhead. She never says anything, just stands there holding their hands with her eyes closed. Always at the end either sheila, B, or marcus smile at me and then say: Go to the trees, the tall one waits. Ok,so I took a nap earlier( at about 7) and this time the dream was different. They were all holding hands as usual and the three were talking the gibberish, but this time at the end, the redhead opened her eyes, let go of B's hand, and ran up to me. She looked me in the eyes and I realized she had all black eyes which was scary. This chick grabbed my hand and said: Turn to the shadows, trust not the trees, only the dark is your friend. She then turned toward the woods, and I followed her gaze to see a huge dark figure start to step from the trees. She turned back to me, screamed run and thats when I woke up. So I have always had a weird thing with my dreams in the past, where if I had a dream more than once whatever it was would either come true, or symbolize something major that was about to happen to me. This is the first time I've had a reoccurring dream like this in 2 years, so I'm not sure if it really means anything or not.

Fun in Portland...

Ok, so I had to go to Portland today with my grandmother. NEVER AGAIN. My little brother had a doctors appointment there, so I had to go, but she didnt make me actually go in. I was allowed to leave and do whatever I wanted.I used to live in portland so I know it like the back of my hand, so my first thought was"hey lets go to that creepy park you played in as a kid." I decided to go because it was super close. Ok, so I went there and it was basicly empty, except for like 3 hooded teenagers sitting on a bench facing away from me. Ok, so I went over to some swings and sat down on one of them, and put my headphones in. I was there for a good 5 minutes, when I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder. It scared the shit out of me. I turned around and guess who I saw? One disgusting word: Jared... Seeing him scared me and made me jump off the swing. He wasnt alone. The 3 guys I saw,were just him and 2 other dudes. New friends of Jared maybe? You would think they would at least be decent enough to show me their faces and not hide them under masks. I just didnt notice it was them because I couldnt see their faces, and you see alot of hooded punk/ swag fags in Portland. So long story short, I knocked out one guy, pretty sure I broke Jared's nose when I slammed his face into a tree, and ran away from the second guy. I swear I'm so done with this shit.

B's blog.

Ok so B just made and posted on his own blog because I told him so. So heres the link for anyone who wants it. now you can see all this from the point of view from the wonderful world of B.

Back

Hey guys its kendra. Ok so I saw what B put on here. I'm here i'm fine. Was in my kitchen, when I heard a noise behind me. The next thing I remember I'm in a wooded park close to my house, and its 8 in the morning. I dont know what happened, and I have no idea how I got there and how I could forget several hours of my life. B basicly attacked me with a hug when he saw me though.

This is B. I dont know how to say this but kendra is gone. I'm at her house. She said she was going to the kitchen to get something. I heard loud noise from there, but when I went in to see she was just gone. The back door was unlocked the kitchen is a mess and she left her knife on the island. I dont know where she could possibly be. Kendra gave me the info to log into this account in case something happened to her. Does anyone know where she could have gone?

Allies.

Posting this from school right now. Ok so found a guy named marcus who understands all of this. He looked at me in math, said a proxy got you huh? and gestured at my arm. He told me that he knew of my problem from the very start, and had similar issues, but havent had any trouble for 3 months now. He said that he felt responsible for me in a way, and wanted to help me out. I would expect for a guy whom seemingly got away from all this madness that he wouldnt wanna go back, but apparently its the complete opposite. He wants back in. He wants to help the runners, he wants to be part of what he calls his runner family, and thinks hes now disconnected from this family. He told me that being away from everything made him feel lonely and kinda guilty that hes ok but his family isnt. I know this sounds stupid, but I kinda trust him. Hes really cool, and doesnt scare the crap out of me like Jared did.

Damnit

I left it logged in? Ok he obviously took my laptop.How the hell did he even get into my house?! So anyway I went to B's house, and found him unconscious on the floor. The fucker knocked him out. So Jared comes out from the kitchen with a knife and starts laughing. He then said I knew you'd come bitch, and runs at me with the damn knife. I tried to get out of the way and ended up tripping over my own legs. He gets down and tries stabbing me but I kicked him hard in a certain place( lets just say I dont think hes ever gonna have kids of his own now) As I'm trying to get away he stabbed me in the shoulder. I know that I fell to the ground but thats all I remember till I was woken by B. We found another note That said: I WILL RETURN. He better not. Me and B went back to my house, and did something about my stab wound. It really hurts right now, I know my grandmother will make me go to the hospital if she finds out. So i'll have to hide it from her for awhile. So I get to my house and when I went onto here I found that Jared had posted something. How did he even...... Ok so it was really dumb and I kinda laughed at how pathetic it was. I mean come on if your gonna write something on here at least make it sound like you have even the slightest brains. Ok carter you were right about him, and even worse things could have happened if I had followed him, or went to meet him. I still dont know what his problem is, but I'm not gonna be around him long enough to ever find out.

All that happened at his house will be revealed soon. its was all his fault.
Lets take a moment to consider what he did.he let me in. even when she said no.
Little did she know, if she didnt let me in he would. didnt log out on your computer.
What happened you might ask. im sure she will tell you. if she can even type with that wound.
It looked like it really hurt her. it was fun to watch it all.
Liked all that pain. they are both the weakest link here and will be gone soon.
Longer she survives,worst it gets for both in the party.
Because i might not do it,but i;m sure they will take her out.
Even if she fights it,they all go eventually.
Really why even fight it girlie,you will only hurt others if you do.
Each second you fight is another second they will
Very much suffer and you know.you do.
Everything will fall and you will die
Another sad ending to a story never meant to even begin.
Let it go,let it go.
Eventually He wins.
Dont fret,just let go. time to return this thing to your place of residence
and one last thing, all the capital letters my dearie.- jared

THAT IDIOT....

B just called me and said hes with jared. He went to B house and the idiot actually let him in. He wants me to come over to talk . I have no idea what to do right now. Jared is obviously out of it, and I dont want B anywhere near him. I'm thinking I should go over there to help B, because before he hung up I heard creepy laughter, and Jared saying gonna have fun. It was the same laugh as hoodie guy the other night and i'm really scared for B. He wont answer the phone now, so I gotta go help. Dont worry i'll bring my knife in case he tries anything. I decided to post this in case something happens to me. So much for no drama today. Sorry carter but this is something I have to do...

GO AWAY.

B kept calling me earlier on our friend's phone. He is seriously worried about me, since I left school so suddenly today. School doesnt get out for another 20 minutes so I'll expect a visit from him in about 30. Jared showed up at my house during my nap, and guess what? MY GRANDMOTHER LET HIM IN. I was woken up by her and she said I had a friend visiting me because I was sick and you can guess how shocked I was to find him sitting on my living room couch drinking a bottle of green tea and smileing at me in his creepy almost insane way. I ran out the door when I saw him. I went to a coffee place nearby and just hungout there for awhile, but my grandmother called and told me to get my ass home. When I got there she yelled at me and demanded to know what happened. I told her that guy was trouble and to not let him in again because it brought up bad memories or something like that. She took that explanation and told me she wouldnt let him see me again. I dont know what it was but something about his smile and the blank look in his eyes suddenly made me very afraid, and I had a fight or flight reaction. Obviously I took flight.

Day off

Ok so I went outside today and saw slendy standing in the road outside my house just stareing at me, or at least I think it was me he was stareing at. No way was I walking to school now. So I got my grandmother to drive me to school. I was late to school, so all the hallways were pretty empty, and the hall I go down to get to my first period class was completely empty. So I was walking down the hall when I got a creepy feeling someone was watching me. I turned around and you'll never guess who I saw. one word. Jared. And he was wearing a black hoodie and was just standing there smiling in a creepy way. He then said something along the lines of I knew you wouldn't meet me so I came to you. I then turned around and ran to my class. B has that class with me so I told him what happened. I looked up at the window on the door and saw him stareing in. I suddenly felt sick to my stomach and was gonna throw up so I ran out the back door and found a bathroom. When I returned to the class, the teacher gave me a pass to the office and I was able to go home. I think I'll just lie low for awhile and take a big nap. I dont wanna handle anymore drama today.

GOT IT.

 I just wanted to hurry up and get it so I got my knife in hand and ran out really quick. Didnt see him but, then again I wasnt really paying attention, because my main goal was to get out there and get back in as fast as possible. So I found a folded piece of paper that said: WATCH YOU BACK. yes I got a picture of it using the cam on my computer.

Hoodie dude

 Hoodie boy is back. Hes in front of my house right now pacing back and forth again. What normal human would be doing this at almost 6 in the morning? I'm sitting on the couch next to the front window, looking out as I type this right now. Hes not doing much just pacing and its starting to freak me out right now. This dude is seriously out of it. Ok hes standing there looking towards the window now, but I dont know if he sees me here watching him or not. I cant really see his face because he has the hood up and his head downish. Hes walking towards the house now. Ok hes in front of the door, but hes just standing there and I hear laughter. I just noticed that hes wearing a black backpack, but I still cant see his face, because he wont look at the window, so I think he knows i'm watching. he took what looks like a notebook from his backpack, but I cant tell whathesdoing with it. He just threw what looks like paper at the window and walked away. B said I should follow him next time he comes but theres no way in hell i'm doing that right now. Its really early, I still dont know who that is, and I'm afraid they have a weapon or something. I would go out and get whatever he threw but like I said I dont know if he had a weapon and I dont know if he really left or not. I'll get a knife in a little while and go get whatever it was. I'll update in a little while to tell you what it was. maybe 30 minutes? 10? a hour? Idk. I'm really freaked out by this so it might be awhile.

Secrets and Lies.

B has been keeping things from me.... Ok so the person who first introduced us was a guy named Jared  He was one of my friends, and he noticed how jumpy I was when this all began, so he asked me what was up. I, not really thinking at all told him everything, and he told me the same was happening to him. He knew B had the same problem as me so he introduced us. Having 2 other people who understood was great and I felt that I had a support system of sorts. Well Jared just disappeared about a month ago, and left no hint of where he went, so we thought that slendy had got him, or it was the work of a proxy. Jared called me about a half hour ago. He told me that the whole slendy thing had been a joke to him. He never really had a problem and B had told him the same story that I did so he thought he would introduce us, and that since we were both so pathetic we could date or something. Jared said he had just run away to Portland for a month because he hated his mom so much. According to him he found out that what we talked about was true while in Portland and so he was back again hoping for our help. Jared called B last week, and told him, but for some reason B never told me about any of this, and I was totally in the dark until Jared called me. This is totally unlike B, and he usually would be the first one to tell anything like this. B told Jared some things that he never told me, and gave him the URL to my blog. Jared told me not to listen to carter about not meeting people, and that he wanted me and B to meet him somewhere. All of this seems a little suspicious to me, especially the fact that he told me not to listen to carter. He also seemed a little off on the phone, just not like himself, and I feel like something just isn't right here. I don't know about meeting him, but i'm gonna trust carter on this one. I have told B not to do anything without talking to me first.
OH BTW! heres the picture of the paper that I promised

hey people Im here with B right now, and hes doing ok, after the whole running away in tears thing (geez) I'm going to let him write something on here soon because he keeps nagging at me about it and is too lazy too make his own damn blog. He might be a nuisance sometimes but i'm happy hes ok. I guess thats what happens when you get a bit too comfortable and used to not seeing him. So anyway B just found a spot to hide and get his head clear, then he came to my house when he had it together. We're trying to plan what we should do next. We might annoy the heck out of each other but I think we could both really help each other right now, and hes someone who understands what I'm going through. Before B came over I kept seeing some weird guy with a black hoodie pace back and force on the side walk in front of my house for awhile. It started to make me uncomfortable and I was about to get my older brother and his baseball bat, but before i could he walked up to my door, threw something at it, then ran away. I went out to see what it was and found a balled up piece of paper that said: ALL WILL BE REVEALED. I have no idea what that means and it might have nothing to do with anything. Maybe a wrong house, or a practical joke or something, but i figured I better put this up anyway just in case it means something of any importance. I never saw the person's face because they had it down, or turned away the whole time. I will put pictures of it up soon for anyone who wants to know what it looks like. Ok on a last note: Carter I really hope your ok right now. Jack said you were but I DO NOT trust him in any way yet, and probably wont till I learn a little more about him and his intentions. I cant really say for sure why I dont but I just dont. I just have a bad feeling about him. And a small hint of anger at the fact that he hacked into your account and is screwing with it without your permission.   

New blog

So I had another blog( kendrachaos.blog.com) but for some reason it wont let me log in anymore, which sucks like alot. It wouldnt even let me look at the page..... I'll be writing about a certain tall dude in a suit. If your reading this you probably either 1. know what I'm talking about and thats why your here, 2. just found  it here or 3. know what this is about and think it will be cool to read. I'm just gonna say if you have no clue leave now and look at some cute blog about puppies and my little pony. But knowing how people are you are just gonna read it anyway, and not care about consequences, and think you should do completely opposite of what I say... cause thats really a smart thing to do you guys( sarcasm). I'm not some genius person who has all the answers. Truth be told I'm still kinda new at all this, and just writing down what happens, what i find out, or just venting. I have no schedule of when I post things. I could post anything whenever. Ok so as some of you had read in my old blog a friend told me i could scare away big black and faceless with incense..... thats a load of crap people. I did it for 3 days and nothing happened ( even tho he said it should work within a day) so B just got left alone for awhile... had nothing to do with his theory, and he actually encountered it yesterday, showing that he was wrong, but it was funny to see him run at me screaming that he saw him, and he was basicly in tears, which made me feel bad, but i still laughed (shame on me I know). Yep hes not gonna last long at all. Hes too weak and cry babyish..... (god I feel bad for saying it tho). Ok people, so if I find anything else, or see him again I'll probably update( unless of course he gets me first or I turn into a hollow slendy servant)