Hi people. I'm clarissa. um...I'm not sure what exactly i'm suppose to write here. All I was told was to write something.
   I'm currently locked in a room, which lacks any pleasantness whatsoever. Its all white and no imagination. I was taken from my home by this person and hes making me blog which sure makes a ton of sense. I have no idea how long I've been gone and all time is different here somehow. I could have been here 3 hours or 3 months for all I know. 
   I just wish he would take me and my friend back. I dont know where hes keeping her, but if he hurts her I'll rip him apart.

You don't talk much do you?

Well forgive me for not wanting to talk to the creep who kidnaps women from their homes.

I helped you Clary. If I didn't take you from that place, then you'd never know the truth.

I told you never to call me that. I swear, once I get out of here I'll slice you into little pieces and force feed you your own flesh.

Big words from the little girl.

I'm not a little girl goddamn it.

Is the scary little girl angry?

Why don't you let me out of here, and we'll see who's scary.

Now why would I do that? Wouldn't want you getting away just yet.

Your just afraid that You'll get your ass served to you by a woman.

Maybe, I should just leave you here to think about how your behaving.

Come back you coward! Face me like a man!

Whats your name love?

Clarissa.

Clarissa what?

Clarissa Quinn.

And How old are you Clarissa?

I was told I'm 19 years old.

Who told you that exactly?

Cut the shit ,you wouldn't have me here if you didn't know about her.

Your mother?

Shes not my mother. My real mother died a long time ago.

Died you say? How did that happen?

None of your goddamn business.

Cant hate me for being curious.

No. I hate that your sticking your nose where it doesn't belong.

Calm it sweet heart, I'm here to help you. I'm a friend.

No offense friend, but you can go jump in a hole.

I knew your mother you know.

Alot of people knew my mother, so get to the point if there even is one.

I know who killed your mother.

Oh really? Then by all means, please grace me with the knowledge you think you have.

Sierra Portman.

Why would her own sister kill her?

Her sister? Is that what you were told?

What do you mean by that?

You really were kept in the dark weren't you?

What the hell are you talking about?

Have you read your mother's blog yet Clary?

First off, never call me that again or I'll break your neck. Second, what blog?

There's alot you don't know about your mother and her death. Here let me show you something.

What is that?

Your mother had a blog, that you should really take a look at. I'd say you have alot of reading to do.

I'll just leave this here. -S

Want To Share?

D nozzle dear, want to help me with this? I'm willing to share her. ~Sierra

I Found You.

Kendra dear is a bit..tied up at the moment. Its very unlikely that she will be back anytime soon.

Say goodbye to your friends my little lamb. "Bye guys, it was fun. And fuck you bitch"

What a dirty tongue she has. We had better remove it before she says something she will regret. ~Sierra.

I Will Find You.

You cant hide forever. ~Sierra

Hide and Seek

Come out, Come out. Where ever you are. ~Sierra

Judgement

I see you've gone missing again my little lamb.

Stop running so I can kill you quickly. ~Sierra

Warning.

Silence my little lamb. Mother has plans for you and the blonde one. ~Lilith's Dearest Servant, Sierra.

In New Zealand, and going to see med. This should be interesting.

Just a thought... Whatever happened to our friendly neighborhood douchenozzle?

I get stabbed, and the next thing I know I'm waking up in a hospital bed. According to the doctor someone found me bleeding on a nature trail, and brought me here. I put up quite a fight, and apparently broke a nurse's nose. I'm told they ended up having to sedate me. I obviously dont remember any of this happening. I'm still in the hospital now, and I just now got back my electronics. Now your probably all wondering who stabbed me, and what the hell i was doing right? Well I told L I was going after nick. This isnt true. I tried getting some imformation on the Fear he serves, and what the hell she wants with erika. Lets just say it isnt good for erika. I'm not sure who stabbed me, but I'm pretty sure it was one of L's little friends.

Hello everyone, L here. If you dont know who I am then thats your problem. As much as me and the shadow bitch hate each other, she gave me the information to her blog in case something happened to her. Before you ask, no I have no idea what happened to her. Now she left me a list of things to do for her. Lets go over it shall we?
-Send shadow pills to miss med.
-Send a prewritten fuck you note to morningstar.
-Give ignis the wickedy witch some stupid books.
-Give wickedy witch jr unda some candles.
-Make sure the suspicious ticking package gets to a nearby proxy base.
-Go shopping for Ashley's wedding gift.
-Kill myself, and send the body to Kelevra.
Now I am more than happy to do everything on that list except the last one. I know she hates me, but if anyone's body is going there, its hers. I've already sent the pills, and note, so I'm leaving soon for that proxy base. I will keep all you wonderful people updated on the missing shadow bitch.

Got stabbed. Bleeding too much. No one nearby. This is probably it guys...

I noticed that quite a few people are going to proxy bases and slaughtering everyone. Well lets just say I tried it for myself... It didnt seem like any of those proxies were even trained at all. They suck at fighting, and it seemed like they werent even trying. Congratulations California your proxies suck. 3 small bases are pretty much destroyed now, and since they arent very good fighters it was a glorious blood bath. I should do this more often.

I went back to my house for the first time in years today. I found almost my entire family dead. The only person who was still alive was my little brother, and he was sitting in a pool of blood with a knife, staring blankly at a wall. When he saw me he attacked, so I ended up having to kill him. Everyone I knew is now dead.

Yeah I'm pretty damn sure I'm alive right now. What I find funny is that everyone actually thought I would die that easy. Oh no my friends I'm not dead yet. I intend on being alive for a LONG time. I'm living to see everyone I hate die, and trust me, the list is pretty fucking long by now.

Some people think that Kendra is still alive, well I have something to tell you. She is most definitely dead. I am absolutely sure that she is no longer alive, so stop thinking you can somehow save her. You cannot save someone who is already dead. 

I'm not dead.

Did you think you could kill us that easy Ashley? Next time,maybe you should check to make sure the person you are trying to kill is actually dead before you leave. Of course Kendra, and the boy are gone. Little effect from the the pills darkness makes me take. I must say it is quite peaceful without them to bother me. Confused my dear? I will explain. When you attacked us, and let us to die, darkness was quick to offer us help. She saved me, and allowed me to become a shadow. It has been a little more than a day since you thought you killed me, but time there is much different as you already know, so to me it was more like a year. I really must thank you though my dear. Without you, none of this would have happened.

ok so I was bored...so decided to give you guys some of my music to listen to. Most of these are just random songs I got from putting my playlist on shuffle... so enjoy.
Med: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=caH9Bl2ug3k
Roy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Yz631s3AM8
Sanna: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ti-5MKMOTrQ
Ash: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hvTde9J3Lo
Rose: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=49-2Fp2Du4s
Nick: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJoAIP_Ved8
B:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XR-qCwzBHhs

Ok, so today I hungout with a old friend. Not gonna give any names for obvious reasons. We were gonna go to the park, which is against my better judgment... but we ended up going to the school, and hanging out around there. You will never guess who I ran into. B. Yup. B. Cant believe it.... he shouldnt be here. acted pretty normal, but that isnt the point. Its the fact that he was there. talking. breathing. just there. He hungout with us and i didnt say anything because i didnt want her knowing anything at all. So.... I also saw some shadows that didnt belong.... And you all know what that probably means... Also some black birds... Big black birds... Some are outside the house right now still... at her house right now...helping her cook. She noticed them. Asked questions. And I told her some stuff. Apparently she already knew something about them. Guess i have someone else here involved slightly.. not happy about it tho, since shes none of my best friends. I hoped to keep her away. Hopefully she doesnt know to much yet. Can only hope.

Ok who wants to add me on skype that hasnt already? Anyone? Anyone at all?

Its 4 in the morning... I'm bored..... and tired.... and I have this peach...Not really sure where I'm going with this post......No you guys cant have the peach. Its mine. Nick, if you touch my peach, heads are gonna roll. That is all...

ok...its 3 in the morning...I cant sleep... and i'm bored... so I'm gonna make a post. ok..so... does anyone else find dimensional bleeding to be extremely annoying or is that just me? Like seriously... It just annoys the hell out of me. um... I killed 2 proxies earlier.... and chaos took care of the bodies.. but she could have done it differently, and not try to annoy other proxies.. I swear shes gonna get me killed if she keeps doing shit like like leaving the bodies next to a house of proxies... and carving her name into their chests.... i mean can you just not? Shes nothing but trouble, and its starting to annoy me... well at least it wasnt her killing them this time...Sometimes i almost feel bad for them, because she can be brutal. Ok, anyone wanna know what music i'm listening to at this time of night? My sleepy mind is telling me this is a good idea to tell you. sooooo music. Dont like it? dont care. and if it really bothers you so much then here. More music. Two of the best songs in the world. one says fuck you i'll do what i want, and the other says cant touch me bitch. haha... the story of my life. Ok i'm getting really tired now, and will probably pass out as soon as this post is done...sooooo bye peoples.

Ok...so I've decided to tell you who it is. Its nick. Roy's bro. You know...the guy that may or may not have tried to kill roy....

ok...sooo... B is dead... And guess who killed him? If you guessed chaos then your right. The stupid bitch was hunting, and saw him, and thought to herself hey look its B, lets go kill him, and probably make kendra mad. *sigh* She also saw him as a threat to me and my 'love life'. Well thanks alot bitch, that really helps alot... On a lighter note...theres a guy I really like right now... I would tell you who it is, but a few already know, and I know at least one person will freak out over it and be all "WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?" I'm pretty sure most of you know him in one way or another, but i'm not gonna tell you who it is, to avoid any massive freakouts. Ok? ok. Out of the people that know, most of them are already planning my wedding... COME ON PEOPLE!! THIS RELATIONSHIP JUST STARTED CALM YOUR TITS, AND STOP PLANNING A WEDDING THATS NOT GONNA HAPPEN FOR AWHILE IF AT ALL. Its just all very weird for me. To tell you the truth...I might tell some of you who it is really soon. I'm really happy about this, and he isnt half as crazy as everyone painted him to be. Well...maybe... :)

The next person who asks to plan my wedding is getting hit. -_____-

Gah... I really fucking hate proxies...

Something is wrong with the girl. About 2 hours ago she began to cry for no reason, then tried slamming her head into a nearby wall. She is currently lying on the floor rocking back and forth, whispering quietly to herself.

Well moving is never very much fun... my family has to move out of our house now....landlord showed up and basically told us we have 30 days to move out. We dont even have anywhere too go. This really really sucks...

Fourth of july...

Well I had a interesting night. Chaos got me into trouble by setting some bushes on fire with fireworks, then threatening a poor old lady who complained about her bush being on fire. Safe to say no one is my neighborhood will trust me with fireworks again. This morning at 6 she set off some more fireworks, waking up a few people in the neighborhood, and almost getting the cops called when threatened to burn down a few peoples houses if they keep complaining. I think I'm starting to hate fireworks....

Well I think I'll spare you all the boring details and cut right to the point. I'm not going to become a shadow, or be bothered by darkness. You all have one person to thank for that: Roy. His constant meddling in this made it impossible for me to get very far with the plans I had. He refuses to let me handle things, and continues to- Hello everyone. The girl is being very immature right now. She will not show even the smallest amount of gratefulness towards roy boy for helping her. I have decided to take over this post and introduce myself to all of you, while she is in time out. My name is chaos and I guess you could say me and the girl are very 'close'. She does not like to talk about me, for I seem to be a embarrassment to her. Roy boy convinced me to rid her of those horrible pills she was taking, and then proceeded to make a very special deal with darkness concerning this girl. It is not my place to tell you any more about this deal, and you shall only know more if he chooses to give you details. The girl is being very reckless with her decisions concerning her precious dorian's demise, and I fear she will hurt others if this behavior continues. If it comes down to it, someone may have to take her out to avoid any further problems. As much as I dislike the idea, there seems to be nothing that I can do to help her at this time. The only thing to do is hope her common sense wins over any further foolish thoughts of revenge.

Hey everyone. You know how I said in one of the last post about how I would get revenge even If I had to be the servant of a fear? Well I did. I couldnt do it alone, and darkness came to me with a offer I just couldnt refuse. I am going to be a shadow. Sorry to all you guys that expect more out of me. To some of you I have failed, and I know some of you will be disappointed in me for what I have done. All I can say is sorry.

Ok guys... so as you can see from my previous rant post earlier.... Someone killed a friend of mine.... YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK IT. SOMEONE KILLED DORIAN. NOT JUST SOMEONE. PROXIES KILLED DORIAN. THOSE FUCKERS BLEW UP THE GODDAMN BOAT HE WAS ON. I was gonna make this a calm non ranting post, but fuck it. Just fuck it. I'm not okay about this. In fact I'm downright enraged over what happened.  Every second I grow more and more angry about what those fuckers did to him.  They will suffer, I can promise you that. I've already lost enough people that I care about, and they had to go and take him away from me too. FUCK YOU PROXIES, AND FUCK YOU STRIDER.

To the motherfuckers who kill my friend.... If some of you are reading this( And I hope you are),  know that I wont just let this go. I will have my revenge for what you bastards did to him. I will hunt down each and every one of you, and kill you slowly, and painfully. Dont think I wont because I will. I will have my revenge even if I have to get help from certain people, and you know exactly what I'm talking about. Even if I have to spend the rest of my life as the servant of some fear to get to you, know that I will do so, just for the satisfaction of knowing you are dead.

Pissing a certain someone off.

I'm making fun of your 'father'. How do you like me now bro? :)

I realized my last post is kinda vague, and some of you might be lost about whats going on. So as you all probably know, the dude who cut off carter's arm said that hes coming for me next.  B has become a proxy. He is avoiding me now, and told all my friends lies about me, which made them cut off all contact with me. But a weird thing happened the other day. I was sitting outside of my school waiting for a ride home, and I saw B and a few of my old friends walk out. They ignored me completely, even when I tried talking to them. B didnt ignore me this time, but kept glaring at me with a look of pure hatred. Just seeing him look at me like that made me finally break. I fell to the ground and started sobbing uncontrollably. I heard a loud gasp, and someone running over. The person dropped to the ground next to me, and pulled me closer so I could cry into their shoulder. I looked up expecting to see one of my old friends there, but to my surprise it was B, and he looked seriously concerned for me. He was the old B again, and not the hateful little shit he has turned into. He stayed that way for a few more seconds before suddenly changing. He gave me a look of disgust, and surprise, and pushed me off him before walking away. On a last note, yes I'm having a complicated relationship with someone. Some of you probably know him, but most dont. I wont say exactly who it is for certain reasons. And yes rose, it is the slightly annoying person that I was complaining about the other day :)

So right now I have a crazy person wanting to kill me, a proxy ex boyfriend, no more friends, and a complicated relationship with someone....  Could life get any worse?

I've already lost him... I dont wanna loose you too.

I'M NOT CRAZY....

So people will be talking to me on facebook, or Skype, and be all creepy and shit. Then later they come back and say I was talking to myself. I'm not!!! Someone keeps talking to me using someone else account, to make me look crazy. And on their side, they have no history of the conversation.... only I do. This has happened 3 different times, and i'm tired of being called crazy for it.... Strider, for the record... I'M NOT FUCKING CRAZY.... SOMEONE WAS TALKING TO ME ON SKYPE, I SWEAR. AND IF YOU STILL THINK I'M CRAZY, THEN YOU CAN GO FUCK YOURSELF.

I've come to a conclusion. Theres no one left to help, or support me. I've already pushed everyone away, for what I thought was a good reason. When I finally fall, and I will, I'll have no one to help me like before. No one will care when I lose it, and fall back into those old dangerous habits of mine. With no end in sight, it will be the end of me, and that is what I fear the most.

Ok, things are better right now. 1 of the 2 people is no longer wanting me dead, and aporia is no longer a problem to me. Now I just have to deal with Douchenozzle, but I think I have that part handled. Lets just say   I have a really good friend, who is helping me with it. I'm ready for you Douchnozzle, so come at me bro. Show me what you got. In other news, B is a dumbass and is probably gonna get himself killed trying to impress me. The idiot thinks he can take on Douchnozzle all by himself, when not even I will( And come on, it has to be crazy when not even a crazy person like me will try it)

Last thing I remember was I was in my room reading at about 8, then the next thing I know I'm on my porch, and its 4 in the morning. Never before has there been such a large gap of time that I dont remember. Before, the longest was about 4 hours, but now i'm at least missing 8 hours.

Aporia

Ok, so I talked to spyre, and she told me something interesting about Aporia. I know what she looks like and everything. Anyone wanna know? email me, and I'll tell you. kendra.chaos@yahoo.com
*update* Ok guys I cant tell you anything now. I dont want Aporia to hurt Spyre because of something I say to you.

WONDERFUL.

well I've had such a WONDERFUL Sunday. I have 2 different guys after me now, that want me and my bestfriend/ boyfriend dead. One simply amazing chica that wants to get into my damn head and break me, listened to a friend cry, and suffer in a video, and I went to a thing with my friends, and got lost in a huge wooded park for like half an hour. My life is just simply amazing right now, you have no fucking idea guys.

Let the game begin.

Fine

Ok,so I'm fine. I saw what B posted about me and the phone call, but I'm ok. I called him earlier, because I was bored. I got a horrible headache, and started coughing for no reason. I wanted to keep talking to him even though the cough was getting worse, and my chest was hurting. I put my hand over my mouth, and realized I was starting to cough up blood, which is probably not a very good sign. I ran to the bathroom, and turned the sink on so I could clean up the blood, and could hear B frantically calling my name over the phone. I said don't worry, coughing up blood. He obviously didn't hear me because I could hear him saying what over and over. I was about to answer him, when I started coughing again. I looked up from the sink, and saw you know who standing near the door. That is probably the closest I've ever been to it. It scared me, so I screamed and dropped the phone. I took a huge step backwards, but trip on the carpet and fell. I think I hit my head or something, because the next thing I know I'm on my bed, with the mother of all migraines  and have no idea how I got there.  My head is still throbbing, and hurts like hell, and I'm still coughing just not as bad now.

Well B went to Portland to see his dad for the weekend...So its just me, and my scissors. fun, fun, fun. Sooo boring around here without him to brighten up my day. Think I'm gonna go to the store now, just to have an excuse to get out of the house. Dont want to stay in the house all weekend and miss any 'normal' things that happen around here. If anything I could use a dose of normal for a change.

I got my knife taken away by my wonderful grandmother. Now my only weapon is a pair of scissors that I found on my desk. Not really anything else I can use around here. scissors can kinda hurt someone. Not as good as my knife, but still its better than nothing I guess. Wont get taken away by security at my school either, because scissors are a relatively common thing for someone to have. They fell out of my pocket during first period, and I had a idiot ask what I had scissors for. Being the smartass I am, I told her it was for annoying people like her... Yeah I'm not the smartest person sometimes, but the look I got was priceless.

B

B actually went to school today and talked to me. I think he has forgiven me but i'm not sure, since he didnt mention the Jared thing at all. He just ran up to me, and hugged me from behind. It honestly scared me alot, and I almost hit him. He walked me to all my classes for the first time ever, and started talking to the few friends I have left during lunch. He followed me home, and is sleeping on my couch now. God I hope things stay ok between us for awhile.

Fucked up.

Well I really fucked shit up. B hates me now because of what I did, and now I'm starting to question why I even did it. Its so unlike me to want to hurt someone that badly. How the fuck could I actually cut off 3 of his fingers without a moment of hesitation, or remorse. Thinking back to the all the screaming, and blood makes me sick to my stomach. When I was doing it, he even had a look of fear on his face. I've never seen anyone that afraid of me before. And the fact that I could even do it with a smile on my face is the worst part. I remember actually smiling, and laughing as I was doing it. I must have snapped out of it a bit though, because when he got away, I didnt chase him like I wanted to. A single sane thought told me to let him go. No way B will ever forgive me for this one, and that hurts. I've never really had any feelings for anyone before, not even my parents. Hes the first, and only person I care about. And now he hates my guts. Oh god....what have I done....

Hey.

Ok, i'm gonna steal a rose thing here...  so enjoy the music. Ok, so to answer med's question yes I probably will do what you told me to Jared something in the future, because honestly hes just really pissing me off right now, I mean trying to kill me is excusable, but DO NOT FUCK WITH B YOU BASTARD.  To what roy said about the relationship thing, your right, and we are being really stupid right now, I know. B is kinda weak, and he'll probably be the first to go which will be hard for me,but I'll get over it and we both gonna die in the end so why not have fun with it right?-Sincerely a honest idiot. To Spyre, thanks for telling me who Luna is, though honestly I'm a little concerned now. And to carter, what did slenderman say about me? I'm dying with curiosity right now, I just gotta know. Please tell me?

Ok.

Hey peoples. I'm alive and well. No park drama for me, but I cant say as much for B. Hey on the bright side I found out he likes me. Its cool I guess, proxy killing couple would be kinda fun right? Ok, so I have a few questions. I'm curious as to what slenderman said to carter about me and B. I wonder if its one of those things he said he'll never repeat. Second question: who the hell is Luna? and last: Whats the most brutal and torturous way to kill someone?

Park.

I'm going to the park with B, and my little brother. I have my knife, and B is bringing his bat so we can protect ourselves, and my little bro if anything happens. I really dont wanna go to this park because of all the trees and the fact that its dark, and sorta secluded, but my grandmother is making me take him. If I see anything that doesnt seem right I'll leave. Its probably gonna be fine, but i'm saying this, so if something happens to me you'll know what happened.

Sunday.

Ok, so its Sunday and my grandmother is making me go to church. Oh god. Its gonna be kinda funny going to church with a knife tucked into my belt under my pink and black dress. I don't trust that Jared and his buddies would have much respect for a church. Is it weird to say I feel like one of those agents from the movies? Like the chicks in the seemingly innocent dresses, with like guns and knives strapped to every part of their body under it? In all seriousness though... I never go anywhere without my knife, because I don't really like the idea of getting either A) knifed again, or B) getting beat or C) getting strangled, and not at all be prepared.If I'm gonna die I'm gonna go out swinging, and knife a few motherfuckers.

Awesome picture of me.

Thanks for the awesome picture of me Spyre, its really cool, and it makes me look badass :)

Weird dreams.

Ok, so I've been having weird dreams for the last week. In all them I see marcus, B, my friend sheila, and a redhead girl I've never seen before holding hands and standing in front of a dark foggy forest. They all start saying something I cant understand, that sounds like its maybe in a different language.All of them except the redhead. She never says anything, just stands there holding their hands with her eyes closed. Always at the end either sheila, B, or marcus smile at me and then say: Go to the trees, the tall one waits. Ok,so I took a nap earlier( at about 7) and this time the dream was different. They were all holding hands as usual and the three were talking the gibberish, but this time at the end, the redhead opened her eyes, let go of B's hand, and ran up to me. She looked me in the eyes and I realized she had all black eyes which was scary. This chick grabbed my hand and said: Turn to the shadows, trust not the trees, only the dark is your friend. She then turned toward the woods, and I followed her gaze to see a huge dark figure start to step from the trees. She turned back to me, screamed run and thats when I woke up. So I have always had a weird thing with my dreams in the past, where if I had a dream more than once whatever it was would either come true, or symbolize something major that was about to happen to me. This is the first time I've had a reoccurring dream like this in 2 years, so I'm not sure if it really means anything or not.

Fun in Portland...

Ok, so I had to go to Portland today with my grandmother. NEVER AGAIN. My little brother had a doctors appointment there, so I had to go, but she didnt make me actually go in. I was allowed to leave and do whatever I wanted.I used to live in portland so I know it like the back of my hand, so my first thought was"hey lets go to that creepy park you played in as a kid." I decided to go because it was super close. Ok, so I went there and it was basicly empty, except for like 3 hooded teenagers sitting on a bench facing away from me. Ok, so I went over to some swings and sat down on one of them, and put my headphones in. I was there for a good 5 minutes, when I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder. It scared the shit out of me. I turned around and guess who I saw? One disgusting word: Jared... Seeing him scared me and made me jump off the swing. He wasnt alone. The 3 guys I saw,were just him and 2 other dudes. New friends of Jared maybe? You would think they would at least be decent enough to show me their faces and not hide them under masks. I just didnt notice it was them because I couldnt see their faces, and you see alot of hooded punk/ swag fags in Portland. So long story short, I knocked out one guy, pretty sure I broke Jared's nose when I slammed his face into a tree, and ran away from the second guy. I swear I'm so done with this shit.

B's blog.

Ok so B just made and posted on his own blog because I told him so. So heres the link for anyone who wants it. now you can see all this from the point of view from the wonderful world of B.

Back

Hey guys its kendra. Ok so I saw what B put on here. I'm here i'm fine. Was in my kitchen, when I heard a noise behind me. The next thing I remember I'm in a wooded park close to my house, and its 8 in the morning. I dont know what happened, and I have no idea how I got there and how I could forget several hours of my life. B basicly attacked me with a hug when he saw me though.

This is B. I dont know how to say this but kendra is gone. I'm at her house. She said she was going to the kitchen to get something. I heard loud noise from there, but when I went in to see she was just gone. The back door was unlocked the kitchen is a mess and she left her knife on the island. I dont know where she could possibly be. Kendra gave me the info to log into this account in case something happened to her. Does anyone know where she could have gone?

Allies.

Posting this from school right now. Ok so found a guy named marcus who understands all of this. He looked at me in math, said a proxy got you huh? and gestured at my arm. He told me that he knew of my problem from the very start, and had similar issues, but havent had any trouble for 3 months now. He said that he felt responsible for me in a way, and wanted to help me out. I would expect for a guy whom seemingly got away from all this madness that he wouldnt wanna go back, but apparently its the complete opposite. He wants back in. He wants to help the runners, he wants to be part of what he calls his runner family, and thinks hes now disconnected from this family. He told me that being away from everything made him feel lonely and kinda guilty that hes ok but his family isnt. I know this sounds stupid, but I kinda trust him. Hes really cool, and doesnt scare the crap out of me like Jared did.

Damnit

I left it logged in? Ok he obviously took my laptop.How the hell did he even get into my house?! So anyway I went to B's house, and found him unconscious on the floor. The fucker knocked him out. So Jared comes out from the kitchen with a knife and starts laughing. He then said I knew you'd come bitch, and runs at me with the damn knife. I tried to get out of the way and ended up tripping over my own legs. He gets down and tries stabbing me but I kicked him hard in a certain place( lets just say I dont think hes ever gonna have kids of his own now) As I'm trying to get away he stabbed me in the shoulder. I know that I fell to the ground but thats all I remember till I was woken by B. We found another note That said: I WILL RETURN. He better not. Me and B went back to my house, and did something about my stab wound. It really hurts right now, I know my grandmother will make me go to the hospital if she finds out. So i'll have to hide it from her for awhile. So I get to my house and when I went onto here I found that Jared had posted something. How did he even...... Ok so it was really dumb and I kinda laughed at how pathetic it was. I mean come on if your gonna write something on here at least make it sound like you have even the slightest brains. Ok carter you were right about him, and even worse things could have happened if I had followed him, or went to meet him. I still dont know what his problem is, but I'm not gonna be around him long enough to ever find out.

All that happened at his house will be revealed soon. its was all his fault.
Lets take a moment to consider what he did.he let me in. even when she said no.
Little did she know, if she didnt let me in he would. didnt log out on your computer.
What happened you might ask. im sure she will tell you. if she can even type with that wound.
It looked like it really hurt her. it was fun to watch it all.
Liked all that pain. they are both the weakest link here and will be gone soon.
Longer she survives,worst it gets for both in the party.
Because i might not do it,but i;m sure they will take her out.
Even if she fights it,they all go eventually.
Really why even fight it girlie,you will only hurt others if you do.
Each second you fight is another second they will
Very much suffer and you know.you do.
Everything will fall and you will die
Another sad ending to a story never meant to even begin.
Let it go,let it go.
Eventually He wins.
Dont fret,just let go. time to return this thing to your place of residence
and one last thing, all the capital letters my dearie.- jared

THAT IDIOT....

B just called me and said hes with jared. He went to B house and the idiot actually let him in. He wants me to come over to talk . I have no idea what to do right now. Jared is obviously out of it, and I dont want B anywhere near him. I'm thinking I should go over there to help B, because before he hung up I heard creepy laughter, and Jared saying gonna have fun. It was the same laugh as hoodie guy the other night and i'm really scared for B. He wont answer the phone now, so I gotta go help. Dont worry i'll bring my knife in case he tries anything. I decided to post this in case something happens to me. So much for no drama today. Sorry carter but this is something I have to do...

GO AWAY.

B kept calling me earlier on our friend's phone. He is seriously worried about me, since I left school so suddenly today. School doesnt get out for another 20 minutes so I'll expect a visit from him in about 30. Jared showed up at my house during my nap, and guess what? MY GRANDMOTHER LET HIM IN. I was woken up by her and she said I had a friend visiting me because I was sick and you can guess how shocked I was to find him sitting on my living room couch drinking a bottle of green tea and smileing at me in his creepy almost insane way. I ran out the door when I saw him. I went to a coffee place nearby and just hungout there for awhile, but my grandmother called and told me to get my ass home. When I got there she yelled at me and demanded to know what happened. I told her that guy was trouble and to not let him in again because it brought up bad memories or something like that. She took that explanation and told me she wouldnt let him see me again. I dont know what it was but something about his smile and the blank look in his eyes suddenly made me very afraid, and I had a fight or flight reaction. Obviously I took flight.

Day off

Ok so I went outside today and saw slendy standing in the road outside my house just stareing at me, or at least I think it was me he was stareing at. No way was I walking to school now. So I got my grandmother to drive me to school. I was late to school, so all the hallways were pretty empty, and the hall I go down to get to my first period class was completely empty. So I was walking down the hall when I got a creepy feeling someone was watching me. I turned around and you'll never guess who I saw. one word. Jared. And he was wearing a black hoodie and was just standing there smiling in a creepy way. He then said something along the lines of I knew you wouldn't meet me so I came to you. I then turned around and ran to my class. B has that class with me so I told him what happened. I looked up at the window on the door and saw him stareing in. I suddenly felt sick to my stomach and was gonna throw up so I ran out the back door and found a bathroom. When I returned to the class, the teacher gave me a pass to the office and I was able to go home. I think I'll just lie low for awhile and take a big nap. I dont wanna handle anymore drama today.

GOT IT.

 I just wanted to hurry up and get it so I got my knife in hand and ran out really quick. Didnt see him but, then again I wasnt really paying attention, because my main goal was to get out there and get back in as fast as possible. So I found a folded piece of paper that said: WATCH YOU BACK. yes I got a picture of it using the cam on my computer.

Hoodie dude

 Hoodie boy is back. Hes in front of my house right now pacing back and forth again. What normal human would be doing this at almost 6 in the morning? I'm sitting on the couch next to the front window, looking out as I type this right now. Hes not doing much just pacing and its starting to freak me out right now. This dude is seriously out of it. Ok hes standing there looking towards the window now, but I dont know if he sees me here watching him or not. I cant really see his face because he has the hood up and his head downish. Hes walking towards the house now. Ok hes in front of the door, but hes just standing there and I hear laughter. I just noticed that hes wearing a black backpack, but I still cant see his face, because he wont look at the window, so I think he knows i'm watching. he took what looks like a notebook from his backpack, but I cant tell whathesdoing with it. He just threw what looks like paper at the window and walked away. B said I should follow him next time he comes but theres no way in hell i'm doing that right now. Its really early, I still dont know who that is, and I'm afraid they have a weapon or something. I would go out and get whatever he threw but like I said I dont know if he had a weapon and I dont know if he really left or not. I'll get a knife in a little while and go get whatever it was. I'll update in a little while to tell you what it was. maybe 30 minutes? 10? a hour? Idk. I'm really freaked out by this so it might be awhile.

Secrets and Lies.

B has been keeping things from me.... Ok so the person who first introduced us was a guy named Jared  He was one of my friends, and he noticed how jumpy I was when this all began, so he asked me what was up. I, not really thinking at all told him everything, and he told me the same was happening to him. He knew B had the same problem as me so he introduced us. Having 2 other people who understood was great and I felt that I had a support system of sorts. Well Jared just disappeared about a month ago, and left no hint of where he went, so we thought that slendy had got him, or it was the work of a proxy. Jared called me about a half hour ago. He told me that the whole slendy thing had been a joke to him. He never really had a problem and B had told him the same story that I did so he thought he would introduce us, and that since we were both so pathetic we could date or something. Jared said he had just run away to Portland for a month because he hated his mom so much. According to him he found out that what we talked about was true while in Portland and so he was back again hoping for our help. Jared called B last week, and told him, but for some reason B never told me about any of this, and I was totally in the dark until Jared called me. This is totally unlike B, and he usually would be the first one to tell anything like this. B told Jared some things that he never told me, and gave him the URL to my blog. Jared told me not to listen to carter about not meeting people, and that he wanted me and B to meet him somewhere. All of this seems a little suspicious to me, especially the fact that he told me not to listen to carter. He also seemed a little off on the phone, just not like himself, and I feel like something just isn't right here. I don't know about meeting him, but i'm gonna trust carter on this one. I have told B not to do anything without talking to me first.
OH BTW! heres the picture of the paper that I promised

hey people Im here with B right now, and hes doing ok, after the whole running away in tears thing (geez) I'm going to let him write something on here soon because he keeps nagging at me about it and is too lazy too make his own damn blog. He might be a nuisance sometimes but i'm happy hes ok. I guess thats what happens when you get a bit too comfortable and used to not seeing him. So anyway B just found a spot to hide and get his head clear, then he came to my house when he had it together. We're trying to plan what we should do next. We might annoy the heck out of each other but I think we could both really help each other right now, and hes someone who understands what I'm going through. Before B came over I kept seeing some weird guy with a black hoodie pace back and force on the side walk in front of my house for awhile. It started to make me uncomfortable and I was about to get my older brother and his baseball bat, but before i could he walked up to my door, threw something at it, then ran away. I went out to see what it was and found a balled up piece of paper that said: ALL WILL BE REVEALED. I have no idea what that means and it might have nothing to do with anything. Maybe a wrong house, or a practical joke or something, but i figured I better put this up anyway just in case it means something of any importance. I never saw the person's face because they had it down, or turned away the whole time. I will put pictures of it up soon for anyone who wants to know what it looks like. Ok on a last note: Carter I really hope your ok right now. Jack said you were but I DO NOT trust him in any way yet, and probably wont till I learn a little more about him and his intentions. I cant really say for sure why I dont but I just dont. I just have a bad feeling about him. And a small hint of anger at the fact that he hacked into your account and is screwing with it without your permission.   

New blog

So I had another blog( kendrachaos.blog.com) but for some reason it wont let me log in anymore, which sucks like alot. It wouldnt even let me look at the page..... I'll be writing about a certain tall dude in a suit. If your reading this you probably either 1. know what I'm talking about and thats why your here, 2. just found  it here or 3. know what this is about and think it will be cool to read. I'm just gonna say if you have no clue leave now and look at some cute blog about puppies and my little pony. But knowing how people are you are just gonna read it anyway, and not care about consequences, and think you should do completely opposite of what I say... cause thats really a smart thing to do you guys( sarcasm). I'm not some genius person who has all the answers. Truth be told I'm still kinda new at all this, and just writing down what happens, what i find out, or just venting. I have no schedule of when I post things. I could post anything whenever. Ok so as some of you had read in my old blog a friend told me i could scare away big black and faceless with incense..... thats a load of crap people. I did it for 3 days and nothing happened ( even tho he said it should work within a day) so B just got left alone for awhile... had nothing to do with his theory, and he actually encountered it yesterday, showing that he was wrong, but it was funny to see him run at me screaming that he saw him, and he was basicly in tears, which made me feel bad, but i still laughed (shame on me I know). Yep hes not gonna last long at all. Hes too weak and cry babyish..... (god I feel bad for saying it tho). Ok people, so if I find anything else, or see him again I'll probably update( unless of course he gets me first or I turn into a hollow slendy servant)